Inner Stillness Outer Chaos

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The Sun Comes Up – finding hope I didn’t even realize I had lost

I’m sitting in a doctor’s office trying to breathe slowly enough to hold back the panic attack that is brewing under the surface. Doctor’s haven’t…

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Trigger warning: suicidal thoughts, thoughts of secondary suicide, self-harm, drug use, and the opioid crisis

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I’m 11 and I’m walking up the stairs with the cleaning bucket in my hand getting ready to start my weekly chores of cleaning the…

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In 2021 I chose to change my first name to Avery as a way to make peace and grieve the loss of who I used…

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I am the queen of double standards. It’s easy for me to excuse forgetfulness, mistakes, or the harmful words and actions of others and say…

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I have a confession to make. To be honest so far I’ve been playing it safe. Sharing carefully crafted vulnerable stories is a safe space…

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I have a lantern tattoo on my right arm, and although it is beautiful, my favorite part is that the glass in the lantern is…

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My partner and I were getting ready to leave the Boston Pizza restaurant we just had dinner in before joining a group of people to…

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One night I collapsed on the floor in a ball, ugly crying with my whole body shaking while our treadmill whirred on beside me, not…

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My friends and I were walking in the streets of downtown Vancouver during a warm summer night. I was wearing a cheesy dollar store tiara…